March 2006 Archives

I just opened the lid of the kiln from my most recent glazing. It was a load of 4 pieces, 2 of which glazed well, and 2 of which didn't do so great. One of the not-so-good pieces is a bowl that I really had high hopes for. I really like the design that i did on that bowl, so I think I am going to try doing it again on a new bowl, but I might refine certain elements of it a bit, as well as use a heavier dose of glaze to make the colors not fade as they did on this first attempt. Images of the pieces (even the bad ones) will come soon.

During the past few days I have been playing with glazes, and now there are a few pieces that are complete that I am ready to share images of. Here they are http://www.disturbingthoughts.net/gallery/index.php?folder=/Ceramics/20060329/

I have typically only enjoyed the wheel side of ceramics, but I am starting to really find creativity in the glaze proccess. I have a few more pieces that are almost ready to be fired that I have spent more time putting thought and energy into. I have a few shelves full of bisqueware that is waiting for some type of finalizing treatment that I want to experiment with.

Tonight I've been doing some thinking about emotions and the way they relate to physical conditions. There is something I have noticed about men who have very thick emotional walls (especially ones who have been hurt), it seems that the only way in to this shell is to do it physically. I have a friend who doesn't really express emotions at all, and doesn't really recieve them either. I feel such distance from him talking on the phone or talking in person from a distance or in public, but lift his shirt and tickle him a bit and as the vulnerability of the situation sets in, emotions start to flow, the shell comes down for a short time. Any amount of touching that occurs after this seems to bring out even more ability to see emotion and react to it with emotion. I have noticed this with myself as well, it seems that when I am standing around in nothing but my briefs (handcuffs optional), I tend to loosen up and actually say whats on my mind instead of playing all of the bullshit to make things "flow smoother" in a situation.

if (tequilla MAKES her clothes fall off) and (tequilla LOWERS inhibitions) and (vulnerability LOWERS inhibitions) then (standing naked in the rain MUST be a valid tequilla substitute)
therefore, people who drink to "relax" really just need to be captured, stripped and tied down until they relax and express their inner thoughts.

WARNING: theory written in a silly and kinda not all here state of mind.

To Crowders Mountain: I wish you a fast recovery to your magestic beauty.

This evening I am saddened by news that my favorite place to hike has been mostly destroyed, by fire, likely due to the careless actions of a smoker. The peaks at Crowders Mountain usually burn at least once per year due to lightning, but the peaks have always survived and recovered from that and likely became stronger because of it, but in this situation it is very different. The source of the fire was not natural, and the mountain burned quickly, as opposed the slow replemishing burn that occurs due to lightning.

I don't understand why some people visit parks like Crowders Mountain, it just doens't seem normal for those types of people. I think of the mountain as a very healthy place, why would someone as careless about life as a smoker be somwehere like that? Additionally, I am bothered that people are not more cautious with things like that. There are several points at which the mountain could have been saved. 1. the smoker could have not gone to the park, 2. the smoker could have not smoked at the park (prefered option), 3. once the fire began, the person could have used the abundance of dirt availible to smother the fire, 4. the person could have gone to the ranger station, or the call station at the welcome center once getting down to inform them of the problem. Instead, this cowardly smoker did nothing and said nothing, leaving the mountain to burn and be destroyed, taking its beauty away from everyone else. If you care so little about life and beauty, then STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY MOUNTAIN!

Current Mood: Pissed and Hurt